Jeff’s Cancer Update: Down, But Nowhere Near Out

Over the past three months, I have watched the love of my life stoically and heroically face down cancer. In that time, I have learned that there is no easy cancer and there is no average cancer and that sometimes this disease mutates, multiplies and outsmarts doctors regardless of a person’s strength, resolve and ability to laugh even during grueling chemo treatments.

So, when we heard a doctor actually say the words “this is not your average cancer,” it was equal parts refreshing for the honesty and alarming for the urgency.

 A Rock and a Hard Place

Jeff getting his head shaved before his second chemo regimen

The cruelest thing about Jeff’s esophageal cancer is that he just can’t eat. Almost immediately upon diagnoses, doctors placed a stent into Jeff’s esophagus so that he could swallow, but the stent has always been Jeff’s greatest source of discomfort. When he does actually get a real meal down, he feels it for days because opening the esophagus with a hollow tube also means that there is no stop gap for acid reflux and it comes right back up his throat.

When the stent ultimately slipped into his stomach, doctors placed a new stent along with a PEG Tube – a feeding tube – as an insurance policy of sorts. The idea being that Jeff would always have the ability to get nourishment even if swallowing was not an option.

However, the cancer seems somehow to be two steps ahead of us and it thwarted this solution when the tumor – forced to grow in another direction when we blocked it with the stent – reversed its course and grew into the area around Jeff’s lungs, creating “communication” between his gastrointestinal tract and his airway.

Jeff developed a terrible cough that worsens when he swallows any food or liquid or when he is connected to his feeding tube. The cough then led to aspiration which in turn led to a dangerous infection in his lungs. In effect, the nourishment that Jeff needs to live is also feeding the infection that Jeff needs to beat.

One doctor told us, with great sympathy, that Jeff is really in a rock and a hard place with this cancer.

Preparing for the Worst

Jeff with his Eagles blanket, a gift from friends

Any communication between the GI tract and the airway is – as the doctors put it – “catastrophic.” We discovered the extent of the issue last Tuesday when Jeff was admitted into the Intensive Care Unit with sepsis, a life-threatening complication from infection.

The pulmonary doctor who admitted Jeff to the ICU found more amylase (an enzyme found in saliva) in Jeff’s pleura than he had ever seen before. He had to navigate around Jeff’s cancer-enlarged liver just to drain the fluid from the lung area.

The doctor told Jeff’s dad to prepare for the worst. Jeff’s mom, step-mom and brother rushed to the hospital as quickly as flights and logistics would allow.

The next day, the doctor with whom we have grown most close, held Jeff’s hand and told him that she is worried that things have grown out of control and that he might be dying. Jeff absorbed this as bravely as he has absorbed this entire, awful situation.

He listened respectfully and informed her that he has too much to live for to die just now.

So Many Cranes!

Friends making cranes

Reading a card from a friend

Throughout Jeff’s battle with cancer, people have asked us how they can help. One thing we have noticed is that Jeff absolutely lights up when he gets a card or a note from someone. So, inspired by the book “Sadako and the Thousand Paper Cranes,” we asked people to send origami cranes for Jeff.

Since Jeff has been in the hospital more days than he’s been out in the month of May, we haven’t had the chance to take full inventory of the cranes, but we know that Jeff has received thousands of cranes from Ohio, New Jersey, Louisiana, Florida, New Hampshire, Connecticut, Pennsylvania, Washington, California, Oregon and more.

I Don’t know what I Did to Deserve this Much Love

Every crane and note is special to Jeff and he often asks just what he did to deserve so

Checking out a crane with a Penn State logo

much love from so many people. Jeff has asked a lot of hard questions over the last three months, but that one has an easy answer.

Jeff makes everyone he encounters feel special. Even at his very worst moments, he asks the names of all of his nurses,

the same way that – in better times – he asked the names of all of his servers at restaurants.

The doormen (and women) at our apartment building tell me how Jeff made an effort to get to know them all when he first moved in. His pharmacist recently told me that Jeff’s energy inspired the whole CVS team and that they are all rooting for him. His friends tell me that Jeff was the glue that brought them all together.

Don’t You Give Up on Me

After the doctors first told Jeff that he could be dying, we had a moment alone. My first thought was just how beautiful his eyelashes are when they are wet with tears. My second thought was “not yet.”

I held his hand and I asked him to keep fighting. I can just feel it in my gut, I told him, that we are not done here yet.

He assured me right then and there that he may be down, but he is nowhere near out. A day later, when Jeff was still so sore that he only had one hand to type, I received this text message from him:

     I will never give up on you amidst all of the diagnoses, speculation, or bad news to the contrary. You are my rock        just as I am yours and will never stop being. I love you so much and that’s not ever going to change.

I choose to believe him.

We Will Keep Fighting

View from the oncology wing at Northwestern Hospital

Jeff has made progress beating the infection and he is no longer in the ICU. He remains at Northwestern Hospital while he recovers and while doctors search for solutions to his feeding dilemma.

For now, they have rerouted his feeding tube, using a J-Tube instead of a G-Tube, in the hopes of bypassing the leak between his GI Tract and his airway. After a very hard week of limited nourishment, Jeff is receiving food through the J-Tube as I write this.

His chemo treatment is paused while he focuses his energy on getting the infection under control and regaining strength. The good news is that we will soon have testing back from both Northwestern and the University of Chicago, which will show us the mutations, amplifications and genomic sequencing that could lead us down the path of targeted therapies rather than standard chemotherapy.

At that point, we’ll be treating Jeff’s “not your average” cancer – with all of its tricky mutations – rather than treating a standard esophageal cancer.

I hope to post again soon with pictures of Jeff at home, surrounded by thousands of cranes and cooking up something on the new grill his family placed on our balcony.

Cranes waiting for Jeff at home

24 Comments on “Jeff’s Cancer Update: Down, But Nowhere Near Out”

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  2. I worked with Jeff at Camelot. I worked with a pretty difficult and aggressive student and Mr. Jeff was his favorite staff. When you saw them interact, you could see why; Mr. Jeff respected him and you knew my student respected him. We kept Mr. Jeff’s picture up by his desk so he could ask to go visit him, which he did fairly often. Jeff certainly went above and beyond to make sure my student and the staff working with him were safe and the staff were still mindful of the student’s well-being. He was a great person to work with and learn from.

    • Maurissa,

      Jeff loved working with the kids at Camelot. Your story about the student that kept Jeff’s picture at his desk warms my heart. Thank you for sharing this.


  3. I worked with Jeff for a couple of years at Camelot in Hoffman. Couldn’t ask for a nicer guy. Rooting for Jeff, sometimes I just don’t understand life.

    • Dan,

      Jeff just loved working at Camelot. He was, indeed, the nicest guy there ever was. It’s hard to understand, but I think he’s looking after us all now, including the kids at Camelot.


  4. I lost my spouse to cancer several years ago after a six year battle. Through that time we acknowledged and felt the peace of Jesus Christ. She is fully healed now and with him in heaven. Regardless of your futures, Jesus has promised to hold our hands during the journey and that we can be with him in heaven. All we need to do is acknowledge and accept his grace, love and peace. It’s awesome, and available – to Jeff, Jen, and to everyone. But it is each of our choice to make. Please make that choice today.

    • Thank you, Rich. I do believe that Jeff followed his own unique and chosen path. I know he’s looking after us all now.


  5. Jeff, we really miss you here at Camelot!! The kids constantly ask about you, the staff constantly ask about you as well. Your Camelot family here loves you and continues to root for you!

    • Karen,

      He loved Camelot and those kids so much. When we got packages full of cards from the kids, Jeff was moved to tears. He is looking after all of you now.


  6. Where can someone send a note to Jeff? My mom is battling cancer so I know the struggle, and would love to send a brief note to let Jeff know there is always hope.

    • Wendy,

      I’m sorry that I wasn’t more responsive back in the dark days. He did have a chance to read all of these comments, though. So Jeff saw your support.

      Thank you,

  7. Sending love and support from Jeff’s old swimming community in PA. Thanks for the updates. Stay strong, Jeff!

  8. What a determined, positive Richmond Spider, North Penn Knight, TLC Congregant, Human Being! We are so inspired by your courage, Jeff. All of us Foxes are rooting for you! God bless and keep you. ❤️???

  9. Keep fighting Jeff! Our thoughts and prayers are with you! I know the North Penn community has your back.

    • Thank you for sending this, George. All the love from PA brought Jeff to tears on multiple occasions. It meant a lot.

  10. Jeff,
    I have been praying for you, your family, and your recovery every day.

    Sherry Buch

  11. You and Jeff are in my prayers throughout every day. Take care of each other and you will surely beat this awful cancer. I sent the “gift” and hope Jeff can try it. I’ve been using it for about 6 weeks and cannot believe the changes. I had back surgery and I thought life as I knew it was over. I have received a miracle. With or without it I know in my heart a miracle is right around the corner for Jeff. He is too special a man for this. My heart is breaking for all who love him. All my best. I know you do not know me. Jeff’s Aunt Donna and his mother and I have been friends since the late 60’s. I refer to those days as my hippie days. I hope I have the opportunity to meet you one day. I’d like to dance at your wedding. Love to all!

    • The “gift” was YOU?! I am only piecing that together now. I hope I can take you out to lunch when I’m in the Philly area in December as a thank you. I’ll be there Dec. 22-28.


  12. Hi Jen! I am a neighbor of Karen and I work on clinical trials in Oncology. I wanted to share a new portal that our company just launched where you can search for clinical trials, there is support for caregivers, etc. this doesn’t just lead to my companies trials but it is suppose to be a portal to help patients and caregivers. If you have a moment during this busy time, just check it out to see if there is anything not known by his current medical facility that could help!!

    • Gail,

      Thank you so much for sharing this resource. Unfortunately, Jeff’s ordeal was so quick that I didn’t have time to look into caretaker support. It was odd to delete that item from my to-do list after he died.

      We did look into clinical trials, but he just didn’t get a chance. It was an onslaught.

      I do appreciate your sending this, though. Thanks for looking out.


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